JE: 2

Well today was just another semi-unproductive day with the same frustrations and anxieties as pretty like every other day.

I may appt. with my Dr. The session was a bit more lively than most as I wasn't holding too much back. As some of you may know through other blogs I've written, I ceased homeschooling my son due to his being defiant, adhd, odd and probably other things and really not getting any support from home. Home is a long story in itself and that is dying a slow death. Bottom line before I drone on.... she had seen him and she brought up having me declared disabled. Of course I did not know the pros and cons of this, but even if, that's if that did happen, I would continue to be "interviewed" to see if I was able to work as some job. (Yeah.. right) Thanks to all of the "true" support at home, I'm rather a wreck in motion. Add to that lack of any real marriage, and the kids being turned against me (oh yeah.. my paranoia). Looks like the wife is meeting with another doctor about seeing my son about his problems..... but of course i am blamed for alot of this. I call this the boomerang effect.... where no matter what happens or happens to... some how it comes back to me in some form or fashion. Me... when I told my dr. and gave him permission to talk to her to set up some sort of meeting w/ him or counselor so that the air, at least on my part can finally be told. What I get at home is "I am not going to engage you" and then she walks away. She and my son are still under the impression that I am homeschooling, but there would have to be major, major changes for that to happen. Leaving w/ half of nothing (of which I have) is workable or will just have to work out. I am too old to drag this process out for 4 - 6 years. I am 50 and still have some good years remaining and I am not going to continue to live the way things have been over the past 4 years.

That's it for now..... off to post to other blogs. Have a great evening and enjoy your Friday.